My dearest child of mine,
I can’t believe you’re 13. It may be cliche, but it really does seem like just yesterday I was brushing your hair into pigtails, while you watched the Powerpuff Girls and played with your dolls.How I miss those days….
I’m writing you this letter because it seems like we just can’t communicate these days. It seems like everything I say goes in one ear and out the other. I remember those days with my own mom. However, these words that I’m about to say, I want to resonate with you. I don’t want these words to leave you.So here they are in a blog. Forever immortalized on the Internet. No matter what…in times of happiness, sadness, frustration, desperation, and joy…I want you to always remember that
I LOVE YOU.
It may not seem like it now. Right now…at this very moment in time…you may hate me. And that’s ok. You may think I hate you too. But I don’t. And I’m doing what I do because I LOVE YOU. Because I know you are too bright and talented and beautiful and smart to continue to make the choices you have recently made. I love you enough to let you hate me for awhile. Until you see, that while you’re worried about missing the latest social event, I’m worried about you missing out on your life. The amazing, adventurous, fun filled, successful, prosperous, long life that I know you will lead. One wrong decision can set you on a dangerous path filled with struggle, heartache, disappoinment, anger, frustration, and self-loathing. I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH to let that happen.
So right now, I will be the bad guy. No matter how much it crushes me inside because I know you’re hurting. Because I just want you to hear me and understand that I do know what i’m talking about because I was there. I’ve made the same bad decisions. I’ve given grandma the same looks you’ve given me. I’ve told the lies, and been scared when those lies were revealed. I UNDERSTAND. and I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO LET YOU MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES I DID. I want you to have so much more and be so much better than I could ever be.
I LOVE YOU. Don’t you ever forget that.